To Have and To Hold
No Longer Available
Completed
2020
Medium
Oil on canvas
Dimensions
28" x 32"
Description
My paintings explore anxiety, attachment, and intimacy in my routine life. I play between building a representational portrayal rooted in reality and searching for a dreamy equivalent. l paint in loose layers that reveal traces of past decisions between firm and final marks. The vibration of the forms, shifting into place, adds to the depiction of instability. Heightened color laying with fleshy neutrals reinforces the edge of distortion. The paint and the image are equally insistent. The home and other private spaces set the stage for repetitive actions. The closer I look at these routines, the more obscure they become. Digesting my intimate world, I break down repeated behaviors; looking closer at domestic spaces; playing with both my attachment and detachment to what surrounds me. My self-portraits use subtleties in everyday life to actualize states of vulnerability. The most private spaces within the refuge of the home, the shower and the bed, offer moments that run parallel to active living, but do not intersect it. I paint scenes of this type of tangential experience, as we recede, and live in our heads.